most of these songs came to fruition in 2021, over the course of many months. it's a pleasure to finally release them. i was so early into my transition when i started writing them and they really pulled me towards self-acceptance and joy! it feels like a completely different vera much who wrote these, i can hardly even remember who i was when i made these or how exactly a lot of them came together.

1. (in)visible
i wrote this song very early in my transition when i was first learning to see myself as the woman i am. it feels like so insanely long ago when i listen now... it's about how long i spent so deeply masked in a life that didn't resonate, and how difficult it was to

2. let me be!
none of u will successfully figure out this sample hahaha i'm sure you know the song but you'll never figure it out! ha HA!
special thanks justice for these vocals, they're near & dear to my heart

3. pantsy
this song is about my pants :) i always got some bell bottoms on

4. same :/ haHahHa
this song is about the highs and lows of my volatile mental state
and how nearby those highs and lows can really be to each other
it can take hardly seconds to climb those mountains and trip down back into those valleys
sensory disorders are no fun but this song kinda is, regardless

5. backwərds
this song is about learning to embrace a nontraditional lifestyle regardless of the fact that it might not be your choice to pursue it. making the best of what you've got. facing god and walking backwards into hell!

6. E.G.G.
this is a song in four parts:

i. egg
ii. still life
iii. still alive
iv. eggshells

this song alone is what made me take an extra year to release this project. "ii. still life" feels like such a sloppy demo to me. i was never able to make it sound the way i wanted it to hear, but it's honest and it's meaningful and it feels like a time capsule to february 2021, two years before this project became available to your ears. thanks to evie & nat for reminding me that i don't have to be a perfectionist.
when i finished still alive and eggshells, the final compositions i did for this project, i sat down and smoked a joint and listened through the whole project start to finish. i cried. i hope it brings u to a special place <3